I wrote this poem after reflecting on my life, and how I suppressed my belief system. I never doubted, only allowed myself to be governed by a self serving, secular mind set. I wasn't living my life with love toward others, only to my own wants. As I struggled through this stage I felt this intrinsic undercurrent pulling me back toward my religious roots. During this period I was faced with some difficult events which helped catapult me back to my faith base, and enlightened me to the wonders of Jesus Christ. I still believe that, as Christians, we are always experiencing peeks and valleys in our faith walk. There are times when our armor is strong, and we feel protected from the temptations of this world. There are other times when we feel vulnerable and sin pierces our armor and penetrates our existence. This is a difficult world we reside in, but we have to remember that Christ will never forsake us, and only through His strength can we stand against the enemies of our faith.

Once Lost

The void is ever present
An integral part is missing in my life
I sense a gravitation toward the unknown
The chains reign me from discovery

Conflict resides within me
War is waged between two forces
One one hand, darkness envelops me
While light attempts to penetrate the barrier

Daily, I struggle to clear my minds eye
To open the window of my soul
Yearning for a glimpse of the other side
What am I searching for, and will I find it?

Intrinsic knowledge resides within me
Knowing this elusive thing will radiate my existence
Lighten my path before my feet
Answer those questions which evade my comprehension

I know it's present
I can feel it's proximity
How do I escape this prison which confines me?
My soul struggles between desperation and hope

Always reaching for the next level
The unattainable bar which alludes my grasp
My spirit filled with remorse and regret
The struggle continues...

And then, one day of ordinary significance
Becomes the revelation I had been seeking
The Supreme Being reveals Himself to me
Showering my body with Love and Compassion

Time slows for me to bask in His glory
Never having experienced anything like this before
Yet, knowing with every fiber the source of this sensation
Moved to emotion by this Awesome experience

My life forever changed by this event
What did I do to deserve the encounter?
My faith solidified
I embark on new discoveries

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